Monday, March 24, 2008

Magic Words

Sometimes people don't do anything to anyone else, and they get provoked anyway. Sometimes all you want to do is stay out of everyone's way and live your own life, and take care of what you have to take care of, and people still fuck with you.

I'm tired.

Daddy's sister is provoking me to the point that I envision myself jumping on her and kicking her face in. Bad, isn't it? I keep trying to ignore it, I keep trying to stay away, but she seeks me out.

There was almost an incident last night and if I hadn't left the house I would have pushed her down the stairs. It's horrible because she lives on the second floor of where I live, it's not like I can totally avoid her.

Daddy knows I'm trying so hard to stay away, he knows I don't say a word to her, and she still…

I'm tired.


Daddy said the magic words I've been dying to hear for so long…

"Let's move out."


He finally understands. What breaks my heart is that my MIL called me the other day, crying and asking me why Daddy said the things he said…I had no idea what she was talking about. She told me he had told the Bitch upstairs that he was going to move far away and they weren't going to be seeing him. At first it didn't click. Then it hit me like a ton of bricks…he's tired too. My MIL is not a bad person, I don't know why he would have said none of them were going to see us…so I asked Daddy where he planned on going that we weren't going to see her anymore…"Anywhere. Just far from here. Wanna move out of state?"


I wouldn't mind moving out of state, I just hate leaving everyone behind. Massachusetts isn't too far, neither is Connecticut…I'll probably look around there.

I'm tired.



DD said...

Maybe you don't have to move out of state, but at least somewhere where your SIL can't become an immediate neighbor. It's sad really, that the only attention she can seem to garner from others is anger and negativity.

Mama of 2 said...

WOW -- it sounds as though you are having a heck of a time with this woman.

I can relate since I have my own issues with my sister in law, but at least I am lucky enough not to have her living upstairs from me.

I hope that you and your husband can find a place to live that allows you to finally live your own lives without the interfence of others.

Keep us informed.

sourpatchbaby said...

She's probably jealous of you. I mean, you have two beautiful kids, a husband that loves you, and you're not bad to look at yourself. She must realize that her internal ugliness reflects on the outside and is jealous.

Hopefully you'll find a nice place with affordable housing and are able to move into a house and not an apt. That way you can let the little dude play out in the backyard with his monster car without having to lug it up the stairs :)