Needs and Wants

I want another baby.
This is a conversation that will not happen in my house in the near future. Daddy doesn't want any more. Sure, he has another son from his Other Life, but we never get to see him (his mother is a whore and is still bitter that Daddy could be happy with someone else and punishes him by not letting him see Little Daddy. Bitch. But I'm not angry...), but I only have Little Man. Things were difficult when we first had Little Man, and we have finally found a comfort zone (of sorts) where we can actually eat everyday, and the car has gas, and Little Man has diapers. Well, you know, except for when the bank swallows our money. We are comfortable. Another baby would put us in a bind, because at some point I would have to stop working, meaning Daddy would be the only source of income. Then I would go back to work, but then we would have to pay the babysitter for two kids. So it makes sense to stay as we are. But I can't help but think that my Little Man will be lonely. I don't have him in day care, even though now there are two other kids at his sitter's house. But they aren't his brother and sister.
I don't know.
This was just a thought that has been going through my head recently. Maybe now that I wrote it I can forget about it and stay in my comfortable life...
I need to stay in my comfortable life, I don't want to struggle the way we did when Little Man first came ever again.
But I want another baby...